Haiku

We meet to depart
we depart to meet again
Hasta la vista

in my thoughts

The sun crosses the skyline

Darkness  descends

A wind blows past

The light flickers

The birdsong dies

Everything leaves

Only you stay

in my thoughts

blithe life

Smiles

Sweet

and serene

enraptures

blithe life

in blissful

solitude

resounds

symphony

to the heart

in silence of

puckered emotions

trust

you rebuke

that
i don’t trust you

i am sorry
i can not
for 

i don’t trust myself

absorbe dans mes reflexions*

image credit: self

vastly useless
i am lodged in idleness
in chambre exquisite
at Le Meredien

TV plays on
as hours tick by
endlessly
nonstop
boredom upsets
i yield to loneliness

solitude beckons
curiosities tickle
thoughts dwindle
with the waves
rising and falling
stimulating
my poetic nerves

i sit down
to collect my thoughts
i wish you were here as well

* collecting my thoughts

Sailing in your thoughts

I catch the songs

those merry tunes

in wondrous joy

I behold her

in svelte grace

So far way

in shut eyes

I adore

the moment

blissfully heaven

my musings rush

unstopped

I fly

past

iridescent heights

and velvet skies

Surpassing

Dejavu

all through

I sail on

in your thoughts

silence

I tarried in the nook

waiting to hear you speak

but you will not

No words shall come

out your tight lips

You are mute

only silence bellows

triumphantly

so unbreakable

no frail attempts

Never mind

the silence

I shall seek solace

in the whispers

of unspoken words

unfathomed

to depths unknown

I shall savour

the trivialities of life

in silence

albeit

sans solace

Happy Valentine

Time has come its round

Valentine is here again

celebrations everywhere

love is in the air

I shall play my part as well

and wish you Happy Valentines

even though you are gone

Its for you to decide
if you should ever come back

or shall i carry on?

fatigued thoughts

I am fatigued

thinking of you

Aren’t you tired

crossing my mind

over and over again?

Why irk ourselves

Can’t we ease the gap

and be together

than visit each other

just in thoughts

Home alone

Every day I come home

Swing the door open

and step in anxiously

Hoping to find you home

but you are never there

I scour the place

And still

there is not even a trace

not even footprints

unknowingly left

I sit on the couch

all alone

hoping you will walk in

any moment

Knowing you can’t stay away

But perhaps I am wrong

The air gets eerie

Loneliness gnaws

even memories hurt

As yesterdays flash alive

and I walk out dejected

Lest I go out of my mind

not a haiku

Cloudburst from the heavens above

has left even my soul drenched

Won’t you lend me a brolly?

keeping afloat

Kicking hard

to stay afloat

struggling

not to sink

but for someone

who can’t

play the water

and ride the tides

to ones advantage

keeping afloat is

near impossible

external forces

gravitate 

quite  strong

and I sink
unlike a few

in an eternal abyss

Unchangeable

Am I a bore?

a dim wit?

Good-for- nothing?

Well, I am

Just what I am

How I was created

Love me

If you must

As a person who I am

Not as

Who I should be

And what you like me to be

For I cannot change

the masterpiece of the creator
to your likes and dislikes

On her deathbed

Here lies she

on her death bed

Dangling between life and death

In a dilemma of shattered hopes

Memories saturated with

Infidelities, hostilities

and deception

Who doesn’t fear death?

And indubitably she is afraid to die

And yet not keen to breathe alive

I can see that she is broken

She is consciously unconscious

she weeps and she cries

if only sobs and tears could touch hearts

if only grief could mend ways

She was never sick

Her health never betrayed her

Happiness was all that she sought in life

Smiles always donned her happy face

Till the blows of infidelity knocked her cold

She lost her senses then and called it quits

Seeking death that was even unwilling to come

And thus her life hangs between death and living

A single tear

She stood there

dazed

Lost completely

in thoughtfulness

Everyone wept

but not she

She shed no tears

She did not cry

Untouched

unmoved

Almost

stone hearted

I wondered

If she knew no sadness

If she had no room for grief

For the corpse on the pyre

and her mother’s departed soul

She remained transfixed

in a deep reverie

trying hard to understand

and accept

the realities dawning on her

In all its coldness

And finally

a single tear drop fell

Some loss

Are so huge

Some sorrows

Cannot be expressed

just a single tear

expresses it all

Thistles and thorns

Life is incomplete

Even in its total perfections

Without the misgivings

A rose is still wanting

in its fragrant charms

Without the thorns

Happiness and sadness

Are the thistles and thorns

Like the days and nights

Thistles and thorns

Are the part of life

The essence of all sentience

When are you coming?

When are you coming?

It’s been only a while

That you are gone

But it already seems

Like it’s been ages

Come back soon

I can’t walk the paths alone

I can’t trust the strangers

That I meet on the way

I seek your unfailing company

The nights are long and eerie

Even my shadow fades in the dark

Everything is cold around

Won’t you come back soon?

Loneliness is killing me

Attending to the realities around

we must run the life’s race

Let us not forget the karmic union

Hope you are coming soon

I am always waiting

Abysmal

image credit: mikko lagerste

There is no answer

in the stillness of the darkness

except the silence of the night

so ghostly frightening

even a faraway glowing light

grows faint and dimmer

The quiet wind can’t be trusted

The  stars are too far away

to light up my loneliness

I know you will not walk with me

down the eerie dark path

and acquiesce my whims

I won’t solicit your company

I am acclimatized to loneliness

I shall befriend the frightening night

Seek courage in a depth of a whiskey glass

and forge ahead into the darkness

all through, all alone

God's own ways

I see not the moon tonight

Even the stars are keeping away

Darkness is all I can feel around

and it’s almost engulfing me

I can see my end looming near

The whispering calls of death I can hear

and the dreaded beckoning stare

to strike its hammer on my life so dear

ere the blooming roses withered 
and the rainbow faded to nothingness

ere the sun sank beyond the horizon

My odyssey of life is nearing its end

I wish not to live a hundred years

and laze in the eternal realms of earth

My wishes are not for a kingly crown

Not all the happiness can excite me

All I wish is just another usual day

another moment, another breath

but I must exit ere my time is nigh
God has his own divine ways

NB: This one is prompted by a dear one who is on his death bed waiting for his end.

berserk thoughts

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My thoughts are going berserk day by day

with neither news nor a hearty call from you;

in frenzied activities while way leads onto way,

in anticipation, I am singing the blues

This rift is slowly running out my patience,

It's hard to understand this frantic life.

Lend vent of voice to this deepened silence,

It cuts this forlorn heart like a knife.

Do not let my smile turn to frowns,

Let me the last bits of my laughter save.

Do not make me a clown among the clowns,

You are all in this world I have.

Rekindle my life with a call so sweet;

This longing I have is taxing me a lot.

My love is all, I shall sacrifice for it,

Only support me to row this life’s boat.

Your inspiration now, I earnestly desire to seek,

Cheer me up to run this life’s race.

Do not let my heart go weak and meek.

Do not leave me a stranger in a strange place.

PS: I came across this poem that i had scribbled years ago  in a dusty note book