keeping afloat

Kicking hard

to stay afloat

struggling

not to sink

but for someone

who can’t

play the water

and ride the tides

to ones advantage

keeping afloat is

near impossible

external forces

gravitate 

quite  strong

and I sink
unlike a few

in an eternal abyss

undefined

cast some light

reveal me

illuminate my  soul

define my being

I don’t know myself

Stalled

Life demands

more than just living

in moments and hours

in days and nights

Life demands

Being more

Living more

Wanting more

and doing more

Life demands

hearing the silence

Searching the unfound

Knowing the unknown

Reaching the stars

and even beyond

But

the gaze

the haze

the laze

stalls the quest

aroused
and yet weakened

the plaguing denials

the blinding truths

veiled in darkness

the irony of the reality

the disillusionment

flamed and shamed

We only care to stare
but don't dare

Unchangeable

Am I a bore?

a dim wit?

Good-for- nothing?

Well, I am

Just what I am

How I was created

Love me

If you must

As a person who I am

Not as

Who I should be

And what you like me to be

For I cannot change

the masterpiece of the creator
to your likes and dislikes

a dream not my own

Do I not have a dream

to call it my very own?

How could I survive

cherishing somebody

else’s dream?

Ah, let me wake up

to the illusive realities

than live in somebody’s dream

On her deathbed

Here lies she

on her death bed

Dangling between life and death

In a dilemma of shattered hopes

Memories saturated with

Infidelities, hostilities

and deception

Who doesn’t fear death?

And indubitably she is afraid to die

And yet not keen to breathe alive

I can see that she is broken

She is consciously unconscious

she weeps and she cries

if only sobs and tears could touch hearts

if only grief could mend ways

She was never sick

Her health never betrayed her

Happiness was all that she sought in life

Smiles always donned her happy face

Till the blows of infidelity knocked her cold

She lost her senses then and called it quits

Seeking death that was even unwilling to come

And thus her life hangs between death and living

A single tear

She stood there

dazed

Lost completely

in thoughtfulness

Everyone wept

but not she

She shed no tears

She did not cry

Untouched

unmoved

Almost

stone hearted

I wondered

If she knew no sadness

If she had no room for grief

For the corpse on the pyre

and her mother’s departed soul

She remained transfixed

in a deep reverie

trying hard to understand

and accept

the realities dawning on her

In all its coldness

And finally

a single tear drop fell

Some loss

Are so huge

Some sorrows

Cannot be expressed

just a single tear

expresses it all

Itched to write

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A recluse of thoughts

lie entwined

almost lost

at the waking emotions

The heart craves
for an awakening

and ere the thoughts fade

I put my fingers to keys

have way with words

and throw together

Silly sentences

Failing often times

yet catching circle

in hungry air

My page fills

Searching eloquence

in expressiveness

A plain scribbler

that I am

and no less

for the itch to write

transience

The dainty flower that blossoms today

Exuding fragrance and exquisite beauty

alluring the straying butterfly

Will wither to nothingness

Someday

The rainbow that curves the horizon

Shading in great magnificence

Captivating unknown hearts

Will vanish to oblivion

any moment

The shapely reddened apples

Sparkling ripe in the reaps of labour

Veering low the boughs in prosperity

Will be detached to fall

Someday

Name and fame, Power and pelf

The desire of every glorious soul

 A key to greatness in being

will crumble down  

Someday

Beauty and charm

That so captivates the beholder

And infatuates many a hearts

Will yield to wrinkles

Someday

The melodious songs of the nightingale

Warbled pleasantly from the woods

Soft and soothing to the soul

Will  come to an end

Someday

The greenness of the meadow

Where the squirrels dance and play

And bees and butterflies buzz around

Will turn grey

at the fall

The sun that radiates the universe

Shining rays of  winning smiles

In the warmth of its glory

will sink  beyond the horizon

at the end of the day

Tears tell the tale

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When emotions run amok

and feelings go amiss

Sorrows saturate into tears

Venting an out-pour

Tears wet the eyes

drowns the heart

Every teardrop

Has its story to tell

Every tear fall

Falls heavy with a pain

and breaks a sweet dream

Tears don’t move some hearts

cold and void of warmth

Some hearts don't perceive

the depth of words

I won't lament my tears

Let it flow to hollow abyss

of regrets and remorse

Let hearts break

and dreams fade

I won’t care

Life is a paradox

Misunderstood

Tears don’t move hearts

Tears are thinner than blood

Feather in the wind

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Fluttering

at times high

other times low

like dandelions in the air

my mind wanders

far and wide

a feather in the wind

Robed

in multitude of thoughts

vexed in its profanity

fully pent up

swirling pukes of insanity

vying for a vent of outpour

ah! an absurd existence

Pleasing words

echoing sweetness

lug confusions at times

even the charming face

puckers the want of expression

for the "saddest thoughts"

and the "sweetest songs"

happiness

and sadness

are the dividers of life

weighed on a seesaw

life, a centre peg

must hold in place

the varied verities

the everyday angst

sing the insipid lyrics

seeking the grace of god

to imbue the sporadic chasms

Mend the dizzying spasms

while the mind still flutters

a feather in the wind