Showing posts with label Love Life and Loneliness. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Love Life and Loneliness. Show all posts

Thursday, May 2, 2013


We meet to depart
we depart to meet again
Hasta la vista

Monday, January 7, 2013

in my thoughts

The sun crosses the skyline
Darkness  descends
A wind blows past
The light flickers
The birdsong dies
Everything leaves
Only you stay
in my thoughts

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

blithe life

and serene

blithe life
in blissful

to the heart
in silence of
puckered emotions

Friday, July 13, 2012


you rebuke
i don’t trust you
i am sorry
i can not
i don’t trust myself

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

absorbe dans mes reflexions*

image credit: self
vastly useless
i am lodged in idleness
in chambre exquisite
at Le Meredien

TV plays on
as hours tick by
boredom upsets
i yield to loneliness

solitude beckons
curiosities tickle
thoughts dwindle
with the waves
rising and falling
my poetic nerves

i sit down
to collect my thoughts
i wish you were here as well

* collecting my thoughts

Monday, April 2, 2012

Sailing in your thoughts

I catch the songs
those merry tunes
in wondrous joy

I behold her
in svelte grace
So far way
in shut eyes

I adore
the moment
blissfully heaven
my musings rush

I fly
iridescent heights
and velvet skies
all through
I sail on
in your thoughts

Thursday, March 1, 2012


I tarried in the nook
waiting to hear you speak
but you will not
No words shall come
out your tight lips
You are mute
only silence bellows
so unbreakable
no frail attempts

Never mind
the silence
I shall seek solace
in the whispers
of unspoken words
to depths unknown
I shall savour
the trivialities of life
in silence
sans solace

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Happy Valentine

Time has come its round
Valentine is here again
celebrations everywhere
love is in the air

I shall play my part as well
and wish you Happy Valentines
even though you are gone

Its for you to decide
if you should ever come back

or shall i carry on?

Friday, September 23, 2011

fatigued thoughts

I am fatigued
thinking of you
Aren’t you tired
crossing my mind
over and over again?
Why irk ourselves
Can’t we ease the gap
and be together
than visit each other
just in thoughts

Friday, September 16, 2011

Home alone

Every day I come home
Swing the door open
and step in anxiously
Hoping to find you home
but you are never there
I scour the place
And still
there is not even a trace
not even footprints
unknowingly left
I sit on the couch
all alone
hoping you will walk in
any moment
Knowing you can’t stay away
But perhaps I am wrong
The air gets eerie
Loneliness gnaws
even memories hurt
As yesterdays flash alive
and I walk out dejected
Lest I go out of my mind

Thursday, September 1, 2011

not a haiku

Cloudburst from the heavens above
has left even my soul drenched
Won’t you lend me a brolly?

Sunday, August 28, 2011

keeping afloat

Kicking hard
to stay afloat
not to sink
but for someone
who can’t
play the water
and ride the tides
to ones advantage
keeping afloat is
near impossible
external forces
quite  strong
and I sink
unlike a few
in an eternal abyss

Saturday, August 20, 2011


Am I a bore?
a dim wit?
Good-for- nothing?

Well, I am
Just what I am
How I was created

Love me
If you must
As a person who I am

Not as
Who I should be
And what you like me to be

For I cannot change
the masterpiece of the creator
to your likes and dislikes

Thursday, August 11, 2011

On her deathbed

Here lies she
on her death bed
Dangling between life and death
In a dilemma of shattered hopes
Memories saturated with
Infidelities, hostilities
and deception

Who doesn’t fear death?
And indubitably she is afraid to die
And yet not keen to breathe alive
I can see that she is broken
She is consciously unconscious
she weeps and she cries
if only sobs and tears could touch hearts
if only grief could mend ways

She was never sick
Her health never betrayed her
Happiness was all that she sought in life
Smiles always donned her happy face
Till the blows of infidelity knocked her cold
She lost her senses then and called it quits
Seeking death that was even unwilling to come
And thus her life hangs between death and living

Sunday, August 7, 2011

A single tear

She stood there
Lost completely
in thoughtfulness
Everyone wept
but not she
She shed no tears
She did not cry
stone hearted

I wondered
If she knew no sadness
If she had no room for grief
For the corpse on the pyre
and her mother’s departed soul
She remained transfixed
in a deep reverie
trying hard to understand
and accept
the realities dawning on her
In all its coldness
And finally
a single tear drop fell

Some loss
Are so huge
Some sorrows
Cannot be expressed
just a single tear
expresses it all

Saturday, July 30, 2011

Thistles and thorns

Life is incomplete
Even in its total perfections
Without the misgivings

A rose is still wanting
in its fragrant charms
Without the thorns

Happiness and sadness
Are the thistles and thorns
Like the days and nights

Thistles and thorns
Are the part of life
The essence of all sentience

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

When are you coming?

When are you coming?
It’s been only a while
That you are gone
But it already seems
Like it’s been ages

Come back soon
I can’t walk the paths alone
I can’t trust the strangers
That I meet on the way
I seek your unfailing company

The nights are long and eerie
Even my shadow fades in the dark
Everything is cold around
Won’t you come back soon?
Loneliness is killing me

Attending to the realities around
we must run the life’s race
Let us not forget the karmic union
Hope you are coming soon
I am always waiting

Tuesday, July 5, 2011


image credit: mikko lagerste
There is no answer
in the stillness of the darkness
except the silence of the night
so ghostly frightening
even a faraway glowing light
grows faint and dimmer
The quiet wind can’t be trusted
The  stars are too far away
to light up my loneliness
I know you will not walk with me
down the eerie dark path
and acquiesce my whims
I won’t solicit your company
I am acclimatized to loneliness
I shall befriend the frightening night
Seek courage in a depth of a whiskey glass
and forge ahead into the darkness
all through, all alone

Friday, June 17, 2011

God's own ways

I see not the moon tonight
Even the stars are keeping away
Darkness is all I can feel around
and it’s almost engulfing me

I can see my end looming near
The whispering calls of death I can hear
and the dreaded beckoning stare
to strike its hammer on my life so dear

ere the blooming roses withered 
and the rainbow faded to nothingness
ere the sun sank beyond the horizon
My odyssey of life is nearing its end

I wish not to live a hundred years
and laze in the eternal realms of earth
My wishes are not for a kingly crown
Not all the happiness can excite me

All I wish is just another usual day
another moment, another breath
but I must exit ere my time is nigh
God has his own divine ways

NB: This one is prompted by a dear one who is on his death bed waiting for his end.

Monday, June 6, 2011

berserk thoughts
My thoughts are going berserk day by day
with neither news nor a hearty call from you;
in frenzied activities while way leads onto way,
in anticipation, I am singing the blues

This rift is slowly running out my patience,
It's hard to understand this frantic life.
Lend vent of voice to this deepened silence,
It cuts this forlorn heart like a knife.

Do not let my smile turn to frowns,
Let me the last bits of my laughter save.
Do not make me a clown among the clowns,
You are all in this world I have.

Rekindle my life with a call so sweet;
This longing I have is taxing me a lot.
My love is all, I shall sacrifice for it,
Only support me to row this life’s boat.

Your inspiration now, I earnestly desire to seek,
Cheer me up to run this life’s race.
Do not let my heart go weak and meek.
Do not leave me a stranger in a strange place.

PS: I came across this poem that i had scribbled years ago  in a dusty note book